I turned in my application for InterVarsity staff this week. This means thinking hard about my future post-graduation. It means dealing with the reality of my situation, knowing that I might not have any form of income for quite some time. Lately I've been reading the book of Ruth--it sort of seemed like God might have been poking at me to read it again, so I have been. One of the first sentences I read was in the little background blip at the beginning of my ESV: "Ruth was destitute and needing to rely on the kindness of other." That pretty much sets the tone for how relevant I've found that book. So much about faithfulness, about trusting God blindly into new lands and new territories. (No, nothing about Boaz. Settle down, people). Anyway, with everything going on, I know I should feel scared or freaked out. And in my head, I am. I think, Okay, so this isn't an ideal situation. Things are not the greatest. How will I deal with this? But emotionally, it's not touching me. It's like being on a darkened path. I'm holding a lantern that lights only my feet. I know that to go to either side means departing the path, and at the same time I can't see further than where I am right now. There's darkness all around me, encompassing me. It would be swallowing me but for the lantern. And I know the only way to go is forward. I said several months ago that this song articulated what I could see God doing. It's now like my anthem, always playing in the background of my mind. Rachel Fruit and Labor
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